Feb 2nd, 2012
Feb 1st, 2012
Feb 1st, 2012
jarrodis:

jarrodis:

Saturday died in my arms last night. yesterday i had a feeling it would be that day. i just had a feeling. i have never watched something die before. he wouldn’t eat or drink and just wanted to snuggle, and as soon as he stopped breathing, his teeth clenched and his entire body went stiff. i was really confused and am really fucking sad. he had a nice last day, though. after i came home from the darkroom my dad and i gave him a warm bath in the backyard while he nibbled on apples. then i wrapped him up in a little towel burrito and we walked all around the neighborhood and it sounds stupid but i just showed him all these flowers, because i thought maybe he, in his lil rabbit brain, would think they were really pretty or something. i think he did. and i talked to him a lot yesterday, more than usual. told him about when i first met him, told him about a bunch of nice times we’d had together in case he’d forgotten in his old age. i sound retarded being this sentimental about a rabbit but honestly he was one of my best friends. and when someone or something is there almost your whole life, whether it’s a person, or an animal, or even something dumb like a table or a blanket, you feel it when it leaves. i suppose it was time. but it doesn’t make it easier. he has been there almost my whole life. (14 years! he was insane) it’s crazy. fuck. loved that little buddy. so fucking much.
Jan 30th, 2012
Beautiful Struggle

These past couple months have been rough but from these tough times, I’ve learned so much. We need to smile because there’s always something to smile about. We need to treasure our loved ones because we can be here today and gone tomorrow. We need to count our blessings and not our problems. We need to hold onto our faith in God. Prayer is power. You shouldn’t always look at a not so great situation so negatively all the time, hold onto hope. PUSH, Pray Until Something Happens